Friday, August 31, 2007

Food EVERYWHERE

It is not until I was stricken with what seems to be neverending nausea that I noticed how pervasive food is. Its images and smells are inescapable.

I almost throw up every time I go to the grocery store, because the smell of fried chicken is pumped strategically through the store. I thought I was kidding about this until my gag reflex allowed me to pay closer attention. At the Wal-Mart neighborhood market, the smell of fried chicken is actually stronger just outside the store than it is right next to the chicken. I'm guessing it's supposed to draw you into the store with the thought of "hey, man, buy some chicken". To me, all it says is "I hope you have a mop and bucket pretty close to the entrance".

Commercials are also bad -- I have to turn my head away from the TV during commercial breaks because I never know when I'm going to be hit with the image of a fatty hamburger with visible grease bubbles on it, or some nasty ass sandwich from Arby's.

If we have to stick with this food theme, why aren't there more commercials for Cheerio's, PB and J, Applesauce, and Popsicles? Food that has no aroma and more grams of fiber than grams of fat....

I could easily see myself becoming a vegetarian. I haven't eaten any meat in almost a week, and I was really forcing myself to eat that.

Good day.

Friday, August 24, 2007

Why I quit flogging myself

Weight: 149.5

So I went and got myself knocked up. Thus, I am no longer obsessed with losing weight. Having no appetite and throwing up throughout most of July and early August has taken care of that for me. I hope you all can understand that thinking about what I was eating throughout the day was not helping. I just wanted everyone to know that I'm not a failure, off somewhere weighing 250 pounds now and eating Chinese buffets every day.

Thankfully I have stopped losing weight, but I should be gaining weight this week. I drink Gatorade and other things that I can keep down. I snack on cheerios all day and popsicles in the evening. I wish I could eat healthy stuff like grilled chicken and salads, but it doesn't sound appealing at all. In fact, all meats sound nasty. 99% of all foods sound nasty.

Dr. appt. next week - maybe they'll hook me up with a protein IV drip.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Goodbye for now

Weight loss is no longer a goal. It will be again soon, I am sure, but I have too much going on right now to think about every morsel that I eat. I'm pretty much eating nothing but graham crackers anyway :-)

Sunday, July 15, 2007

July 15, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Cup of ginger ale, handful of pretzels, package of Nutty Bars (which sounded appealing but really weren't), handful of grapes, bottle of apple juice, frozen burrito, 2 light bologna sandwiches

Saturday, July 14, 2007

July 14, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Breakfast: handful of pretzels, 2 frozen waffles

I went to work again. I'm taking tomorrow off though. While there, I ate a small container of pringles and a handful of ginger snaps.

After work: 2.5 servings of Totino's pizza rolls and a bowl of popcorn with melted butter and parmesan cheese

Friday, July 13, 2007

July 13, 2007

Weight: 153 -- holding steady, and that's okay

Breakfast: cup of sprite and 2 frozen waffles

At work: bottle of apple juice (why is orange juice abbreviated OJ, but there is no such thing as AJ?), 1/2 a sleeve of graham crackers, Zone Perfect Bar, small bag of Gardettos, can of Ginger Ale

After work: frozen burrito

Thursday, July 12, 2007

July 12, 2007

Weight: 153

Breakfast: small cup of sprite, 2 frozen waffles

At work: small bottle of apple juice, half a sleeve of graham crackers, Zone Perfect Bar, Special K Protein Bar, a packet of Doritos Jalapeno Cheese Crackers

After work: 2 Frozen burritos, handful of baked Cheetos

Exercise: one mile walk at lunch

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

July 11, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Breakfast: small cup of sprite - 2 frozen waffles

At work: bottle of apple juice, Zone Perfect bar, about half a sleeve of graham crackers, a small package of Gardettos

Dinner: frozen burrito - 2 handfuls of wheat thins and a few slices of swiss cheese

Exercise: 1 mile walk at lunch

July 10, 2007

Weight: 153

Breakfast: small glass of ginger ale and a small bowl of raisin bran

At work: 16 oz. of OJ, about 3/4 of a sleeve of graham crackers. 2 Zone Perfect bars.

After work: Frozen burrito, a few wheat thins and a few slices of swiss cheese

Monday, July 9, 2007

July 9, 2007

Weight: 153.5

Breakfast: small glass of ginger ale and a few handfuls of pretzels

At work: 16 oz. of OJ, Zone Perfect bar (chocolate mint!), small handful of shredded wheat, can of ginger ale, small bag of Gardettos

After work: another Zone Perfect bar, a few slices of swiss cheese and a few crackers

Sunday, July 8, 2007

July 8, 2007

Weight: 153

Breakfast: Handful of pretzels and small cup of ginger ale

I went to work for a few hours again today. Keeping up appearances. I had a small bag of Chili Cheese Fritos and a 20 oz of Sierra Mist.

Later today.....2 frozen waffles....handful of pretzels....several trips to the leftover birthday cake for little slivers to snack on.....most of a can of chicken noodle soup.....bowl of popcorn with melted buttery spread and Parmesan cheese....piece of cake and a bit of ice cream

Saturday, July 7, 2007

July 7, 2007

Weight: 151.5

Breakfast: 2 handfuls of pretzels and a small cup of Sprite

I went to work for a little while -- I'm worried about getting a project done on time so it's actually less stressful to work than to worry about it not getting done....I left at noon. While there, I drank some Ginger Ale and ate a small bag of Chili Cheese Fritos from the vending machine.

After work: Several small cups of ginger ale throughout the day. 2 handfuls of pretzels. 1 medium and 1 small piece of Thomas's birthday cake with Cookies & Cream ice cream. Leftover lasagna from yesterday. Cup of chocolate milk. Very small bowl of raisin bran. Another very small piece of birthday cake with ice cream.

Friday, July 6, 2007

July 6, 2007

Weight: 153

Breakfast: a few crackers and a few small cups of sprite, half a little sara lee bagel

At work: 10-15 crackers, small bag of Sun Chips, 2 cans of ginger ale, 16 oz. of OJ

After work: Thomas's Birthday Eve dinner at Spaghetti Warehouse. 2 small pieces of bread - one with butter. The darker pieces of lettuce (there were very few) in the garden salad with croutons and ranch dressing. About 1/4 of a 15 layer lasanga. The meat was just spicy enough to be fabulous.

Evening: cup of pudding

Thursday, July 5, 2007

July 5, 2007

Weight: 153.5

Breakfast: a few soda crackers

At work: 2 cans of ginger ale, let's say about 15 whole wheat soda crackers, box of raisins, handful of dates, bottle of OJ (maybe around 15 oz?)

After work: I drowned the sorrows of a pretty bad day at work with a big bowl of chicken noodle soup (prepared by Rod).

July 4, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Breakfast: 2 frozen waffles and some OJ

Lunch: Can of chicken noodle soup

Afternoon: 6 M&M cookies and a snickerdoodle

Dinner: spinach salad with fat free ranch dressing and a few soda crackers

Evening: snack size thing of pudding

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

July 3, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Breakfast: glass of OJ

At work: Handful of dates, box of raisins, handful of shredded wheat, cup o' soup with 5-10 whole wheat saltines, can of ginger ale

After work: Four frozen waffles

July 2, 2007

Weight: 153

At work: Handful of dates, box of raisins, banana, small bag of Sun Chips, Light Cranberry juice

After work: Some nasty concoction of pork chops, mushroom soup, and brown rice. What was I thinking?

Sunday, July 1, 2007

July 1, 2007

Weight: 152

Morning: Banana and a package of Nutty Bars

Afternoon: Sara Lee cinnamon bagel, spinach salad with fat free ranch dressing, leftover sirloin and baked potato from Lone Star last night with extra piece of melted American cheese, two bowls of baked Cheetos

Evening: Glass of orange juice, bowl of baked Cheetos mixed with pretzels

June 30, 2007 - Rod's birthday

Weight: Unknown

Breakfast: 2 small Sara Lee cinnamon bagels, glass of OJ

Lunch: 3 biscuits with gravy at Duffy's

Afternoon: glass of OJ

Dinner: At Lone Star Steakhouse. 2 rolls with butter. Dinner salad. 1/2 of a 6 oz. sirloin and about 1/3 of a baked potato with butter, sour cream, cheese, and bacon.

Evening: glass of OJ, 1 small Sara Lee cinnamon bagel

Friday, June 29, 2007

June 29, 2007

Weight: 153

OK so I ate horribly yesterday. I was a bit more inspired today to eat better. I left for work early enough to restock my desk at work with food.

Breakfast: Wheaties, milk, and brown sugar

At work: 2 handfuls of dates, box of raisins, handful of shredded wheat

After work: Boneless pork sirloin cooked on the George Foreman, 1.75 servings of brown rice, spinach and fat free ranch dressing, and two Nutty Bars (one package).

June 28, 2007

Weight: 153

At work: Decaf with french vanilla creamer; convenience store size bag of Sun Chips; Arby's Reuben sandwich, and curly fries

After work: V8 juice and 3 chicken tenders

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

June 27, 2007

Weight: 154

Breakfast: Wheaties, milk, and brown sugar

At work: Box of raisins, Curves bar, handful of almonds, can of pineapple/orange/banana juice, another Alberton's roast beef wrap

Dinner: can of Spicy V8 juice; 4 frozen waffles

Exercise: about 25 minutes on the elliptical trainer

June 26, 2007 - Trying is the first step toward failure day

Weight: 153.5

I don't have the patience for weight loss. The weight will all come back anyway, and it's not like anyone notices a ten pound swing. Nobody has told me I look like a cow. Unless I develop health reasons to have a low cholesterol, low sodium, low fat diet, I'm just going to eat when I'm hungry and whatever sounds good. Life is too short to avoid egg rolls and fried rice.

Breakfast: 2 frozen waffles and orange juice

At work: Box of raisins, handful of almonds, Curves peanut & chocolate bar, Albertson's roast beef wrap -- a new addiction

Evening: Egg Roll Street -- Sweet & Sour pork, fried rice, and an egg roll!

Monday, June 25, 2007

June 25, 2007

Weight: 153.5 (fatty, fatty, fat, fat -- yes another Simpsons quote)

Breakfast: Raisin bran, milk, and brown sugar. Excellent.

At work: Box of raisins, handful of almonds, small can of orange, pineapple, banana juice

Dinner: Wolf Brand turkey chili with a leftover cut up hot dog. What would Freud say about my love of hot dogs? Or that I like to cut them up in my chili? V8 juice and a handful of pretzels.

Exercise: Mile walk during lunch (the last 1/4 of it was during a downpour) and about 15 minutes on the elliptical trainer after work.

June 24, 2007

Weight: 153

Breakfast: Tony's Pouch. Also some coffee with creamer at church.

Lunch: 3 slices of frozen cheese pizza and a handful of baked cheetos; glass of orange juice.

Dinner: Here's where it gets fun....FOUR light hot dogs on heart-healthy buns. Some V8 juice.

My soul felt better after mindlessly stuffing food in my face whilst watching TV. I easily could have eaten four more.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

June 23, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Still pretty much eating whatever/whenever I want. I somehow didn't buy one of the packages of fried chicken that Wal-Mart had setting right beside the checkout stands. It was more a statement of how I felt so obviously marketed to -- buying something that smells incredibly wonderful right by the checkout stands is exactly what they would want me to do. I'm not a sheep.

Breakfast: Leftover cheeseburger macaroni and orange juice

Afternoon: 2 bowls of Baked Doritos mixed with pretzels and a bowl of Baked Cheetos

Evening: Two servings of Stouffer's Lasagna. And some Spicy V8.

June 22, 2007 -- Still not caring

Weight: 153.5

Breakfast: Slice of leftover pizza and breadstick

At work: Decaf with French Vanilla creamer, handful of dates, roast beef sandwich from Albertson's (only part of it -- the cheese was nasty and the lettuce was wilted, i'm still kind of throwing up a little bit in my mind from the cheese - the roast beef and bread were okay)

After work: bowl of cheeseburger macaroni and a bowl of hamburger stroganoff

Friday, June 22, 2007

June 21, 2007 - The day I just stopped caring

Weight: 152.5

Breakfast: Sonic sausage breakfast burrito & Sonic-Sized tater tots

Afternoon: Glass of Orange juice

Dinner: Four slices of Meat Lovers Pizza and four breadsticks.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

June 20, 2007

Weight: 152

Breakfast: Tony's Pouch and Orange Juice

At work: Handful of dates, handful of shredded wheat, roast beef wrap from Albertsons

After work: 2 servings of Wolf Brand Turkey Chili, small bowl of Baked Doritos

Exercise: Bowflex

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

June 19, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Breakfast: Light hot dog, 1 piece of bread, handful of pretzels

At work: Handful of dates, handful of shredded wheat, handful of almonds

After work: 2 light hot dogs, 2 pieces of bread, 2 handfuls of pretzels -- gotta eat hot dogs if there's an open package of them. Spinach with fat free ranch dressing. Strawberries with light sugar.

Exercise: Two mile walk at lunch.

Monday, June 18, 2007

June 18, 2007

Weight: 152

Not hungry for breakfast....

At work: Handful of dates, handful of almonds, handful of shredded wheat, Curves bar

At Borders: cream in coffee - note to self -- Borders coffee is nasty -- just buy a magazine next time in order to avoid the guilt of reading in the store for an hour

Evening: small bowl of Baked Doritos and pretzel mixture, chicken tenders (8 of them - technically 3 in a serving), spinach with fat free ranch dressing, and some strawberries with light sugar

Exercise: My usual Bowflex routine

June 17, 2007 - Father's Day Fun

Weight: 151

Breakfast: Chicken fried steak, eggs, hashbrowns, and pancakes. Bwahahaha.

Afternoon: 8oz. of Orange Juice

Evening: Tony's Pouch; two sizeable bowls of ice cream

Saturday, June 16, 2007

June 16, 2007

Weight: 152

Breakfast: Frozen bean & cheese burrito and orange juice

I gave blood this morning! Had a package of Grandma's Chocolate on Chocolate cookie action, plus a can of OJ.

Ran some other errands and looked around at Gardner's used books for a while. The next stop was Steak n' Shake. Mushroom & Swiss Burger, Fries, and a small bowl of chili. Good stuff.

Afternoon: Yet another glass of OJ. Can one get too much vitamin C? At least one study shows it can rust your body. A story like that's gotta be true.

Evening: Cream in a "basically decaf" coffee(according to chick who made it) at Nordaggio's Coffee in Owasso. We listened to Scott's guitar gig. Nicely done.

June 15, 2007

Weight: 151.5

Breakfast: Raisin bran with brown sugar

At work: Box of raisins, handful of dates

Lunch: Taco Bell -- regular taco, taco supreme, and a quesadilla

After work: Bowl of spinach with fat free dressing, a few bowls of Baked Doritos mixed with lowfat pretzels

Thursday, June 14, 2007

June 14, 2007

Weight: 152

Breakfast: Frozen bean and cheese burrito

At work: Usual Thursday morning decaf with french vanilla creamer and a box of raisins. It was birthday treat day at work, so I had small pieces of chocolate merengue, apple, cherry, and caramel apple. Very small. Like less than actual serving size small.

After work: Finally finished off the Blandest Meatloaf Ever, with a healthy topping of BBQ sauce. Next time, more tomato sauce and no milk.

Exercise: Two mile walk at lunch and Bowflex this evening.

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

June 13, 2007

Weight: 151.5

Breakfast: Frozen El Monterrey Bean & Cheese burrito

At work: Handful of dates (those things are like candy!), box of raisins, pineapple orange banana juice (no vodka, Karen - thanks for asking - even though we both know this is the best mixer for it)

Late lunch: It was raining for the second day in a row at lunch. I ate Long John Silvers. Three chicken planks, four hushpuppies, cole slaw, and fries. It was a rational decision.

Dinner: A very small portion of meatloaf.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

June 12, 2007

Weight: 151.5 (a three week low!)

Breakfast: A Patio frozen burrito

At work: Box of raisins, handful of shredded wheat, handful of almonds, pineapple orange banana juice, Dannon Smoothie

Dinner: Meatloaf (about 1/4 of the loaf that was made with 2.25 lbs of ground sirloin). Good stuff.

Exercise: Bowflex.

I need to add some variety to this.....I'd like to see some recipes that have ten or fewer ingredients and can be put together very inexpensively on a per meal basis. All of the recipes I have seen lately are very exotic and look like they would take hours to prepare. If only they made healthy Ramen or Hamburger Helper.....

Monday, June 11, 2007

June 11, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Breakfast: Wheaties with 2 tsp. of brown sugar

At work: Box of raisins, 2 handfuls of shredded wheat, handful of almonds, Curves peanut and chocolate bar

Dinner: serving of brown rice and leftover ground turkey

Evening: Few handfuls of raisins and a handful of pretzels

Exercise: 1 mile walk at lunch

June 10, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Breakfast: Two handfuls of almonds; a little creamer in my coffee at church

Lunch: Patio frozen burrito

Dinner: 1/4 lb. ground turkey and two eggs (protein!)

Evening: Small bowl of pretzels

Exercise: Bowflex

Saturday, June 9, 2007

June 9, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Breakfast: Handful of almonds

Lunch: McDonald's Grilled Chicken Ranch Snack Wrap -- only 270 calories. Much better for me than the corn dog I was eyeing at the Diversity Festival (and cheaper too).

Afternoon: Leftover Stove Top from yesterday

Dinner: Small bowl of generic hamburger helper; small bowl of generic tuna helper

Exercise: About a two mile walk during the Pride Parade! Happy Gay Day everybody!

Friday, June 8, 2007

June 8, 2007

Weight: 153

Breakfast: Weight control oatmeal with 2 teaspoons of brown sugar

At work: Box of raisins, 8 oz. of pineapple orange banana juice, Curves chocolate and peanut bar, handful of shredded wheat

At home: Pork sirloin and a LOT of stove top stuffing....3 servings at least. No regrets.

Exercise: Two mile walk during lunch

Thursday, June 7, 2007

June 7, 2007

Now without day numbering!

Weight: 152.5

Breakfast: Light bologna sandwich and Baked Cheetos

At work: Usual Thursday morning Quik Trip Decaf and French Vanilla Creamer, 1.5 oz. box of raisins, about a serving and a half of the All Bran crackers - just to finish off the box, 10 oz. of Orange Juice

At home: Patio frozen burrito, spinach with fat free ranch dressing; bowl of Baked Cheetos -- the Cheetos are in the house...I have to eat them, right?

Exercise: Two mile walk during lunch.

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

Day 16 - June 6, 2007

Weight: 153.5

When am I going to see rewards here? I'm toying with the idea of just eating horribly again....Sonic, Egg Roll Express, etc. I'll stick with it a while longer....I guess not being malnourished is its own benefit. My calf muscles are getting strong and my biceps are bulky - I'll need to get a permit to carry these guns :-)

Breakfast: 1/4 package of Jello with half a banana

At work: 1.5 oz. box of raisins, 2 servings of All Bran Crackers, handful of Shredded Wheat, 10 oz. of orange juice

After work: 1/4 lb. of ground turkey (precooked), raw spinach with fat free ranch dressing; remainder of Jello (3/4 of package with 1 1/2 bananas suspended in it); bowl of Baked Cheetos

Exercise: 1 mile walk during lunch and Bowflex after work

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Day 15 - June 5, 2007

Weight: 153.5

Breakfast: Light bologna sandwich, handful of pretzel twists

At work: Banana, 2 handfuls of shredded wheat, 1.5 oz. box of raisins

After work: 1/4 lb. (precooked) of ground turkey, sauteed mushrooms, spinach salad with fat free ranch dressing; two bowls of baked Cheetos

I took a long walk during lunch.

Day 14 - June 4, 2007

Weight:153

Breakfast: Banana

At work: Handful of Shredded wheat, handful of All Bran crackers

Lunch at Chimi's with my friend: Two tacos, tortilla soup, chips, and queso

Dinner: Spinach, mushrooms, fat free ranch dressing, slice of light bologna, and a handful of pretzel twists

I did some Bowflex. Getting stronger but not lighter or smaller.

Sunday, June 3, 2007

Day 13 - June 3, 2007

Weight: 153

Breakfast: Weight control oatmeal with two teaspoons of brown sugar, coffee with skim milk

Lunch: Spinach, mushrooms, and fat free ranch dressing

Afternoon: Four Grands buttermilk biscuits with buttery spread and low sugar jam

Dinner: Handful of sauteed mushrooms, handful of pretzel twists

Saturday, June 2, 2007

Day 12 - June 2, 2007

Weight: 154 (mostly muscle, I'm sure)

Breakfast: Two of the Pillsbury Splenda sweetened cinnamon rolls - left over from yesterday

Lunch: Two scrambled eggs with a few ounces of cheddar cheese melted on it - Protein!

Snack: 1.5 oz. box of raisins - handful of Baked Cheddar Ruffles

Dinner: handful of spinach, handful of raw mushrooms, fat free ranch dressing

Evening: two handfuls of pretzel twists

I worked out on the Bowflex this morning and also burned some calories looking for my dog -- We found her (and further secured the back yard, which was another workout)!

Friday, June 1, 2007

Day 11 - June 1, 2007

Weight: Unknown

Breakfast: 2 Pillsbury Splenda Sweetened Cinnamon rolls (only 110 calories each!)

Lunch: Chinese Buffet with Dad. Too many items to mention, but my stomach wasn't feeling all that great so I didn't really each that much. Highlights include an egg roll, some fried rice, several Broccoli X (where X = variety of meat) dishes, and some egg drop soup.

At work (I took a half day in the morning and worked in the afternoon): 10 oz. of Orange Juice

After work: Tony's Pouch -- Philly Cheese Steak, also a bowl of the Blue Bunny ice cream

I took a walk around the neighborhood before lunch.

Day 10 - May 31, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Busy couple of days. I'm pretty sure I remember it all though.....I am OCD after all.

Breakfast: Box of raisins

At work: Quik Trip decaf with some French Vanilla creamer, 2 servings of All Bran garlic crackers, handful of shredded wheat, 10 oz. of orange juice

After work: Daddy Shank came to visit. I made some hamburgers on the George Foreman grill. I had a 1/3 lb. (precooked weight) cheeseburger with a heart healthy bun, two handfuls of Baked Ruffles, two handfuls of Baked Cheetos, and about two servings of Blue Bunny No Sugar Added Peanut Butter Fudge ice cream.

Lots of food for dinner, but I very much needed it at the time. Rough day -- had to meet two plumbers at my house to deal with a drainage issue. Blew my lunch hour finding out the first guy couldn't do anything and then Mullins Plumbing (home of "The Red Rooter"!) showed up right on cue while I was taking the first bite of my burger.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Day 9 - May 30, 2007

Weight 153.5 (wha' happened?)

Breakfast: Generic Wheaties, milk, and a handful of raisins

At work: 10 oz. of orange juice, serving of All Bran crackers, handful of Cinnamon Shredded Wheat, Fiber One Chocolate and Oats bar

Dinner: Philly Cheese Steak Tony's Pouch (sort of a Hot Pocket knockoff - on sale at Reasor's last week)

Evening: 8 oz. of Vegetable Soup and 5 saltines

Bowflex this evening too!

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Day 8 - May 29, 2007

Weight: 153

Breakfast: Weight control oatmeal with two teaspoons of brown sugar

At work: 1.5 oz. box of raisins, handful of cinnamon shredded wheat, 10 oz. of orange juice

At Borders at lunch (I swear they pump hunger hormone into the air there -- being there always makes me hungry): Sour dough pretzel

Dinner: Leftover ground turkey and brown rice

Evening: 8 oz. of vegetable juice and 5 saltines

I did much less thinking about food today, thanks to being busy at work. No real physical activity today -- I got home late and it was threatening to rain at lunch so I didn't walk. I'm also sore from the Bowflex yesterday. Excuses.....

Monday, May 28, 2007

Day 7 - May 28, 2007

Weight: 153.5

Breakfast: Box of raisins

Lunch: Salami sandwich with handful of pretzels

Dinner: 1/4 lb. ground turkey (precooked weight) and a cup of brown rice

Evening: 8 oz. of vegetable juice and 5 saltines

I spent some time with the Bowflex this evening.

I was sad all day because it was a holiday and I didn't eat chips and cakes and cookies. Food is a cheap antidepressant and I can get it without a prescription. I'm obsessed with food -- previously with the idea of what tasty thing I was going to eat next and now because I'm not getting to eat those things. Maybe having a million things to do at work tomorrow will occupy my brain so it can't think about food all the time.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Day 6 - May 27, 2007

Weight: Unknown

Breakfast: Breakfast bowl from Spangles (consisting of sausage, egg, tater rounds, and gravy -- maybe some cheese?) and a small orange juice. Mom had the same thing. I wish Tulsa had Spangles. But I guess I can't really eat a breakfast bowl every day.

Lunch: Half of my leftover ravioli, half of my mom's leftover lasagna, a piece of fried zucchini, and a spinach salad.

Dinner: Two small servings of shepherd's pie (yummy, Rod!) and two slices of Texas toast

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Day 5 - May 26, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Greetings from Wichita.

Breakfast: 1.5 oz. box of raisins

Snack in convenience store parking lot in southern Kansas: Honey Nut Cheerios bar (made with real milk!). Chose this over the Nutri grain bar that was covered in dust on the bottom shelf. I guess health food isn't one of their profit centers.

Lunch: Mom bought lunch at Olive Garden - Booyah! Had a few stuffed mushrooms, a few fried zucchini slices, a few pieces of fried meat ravioli, a few breadsticks, a few bowls of salad, and about 1/4 of my plate of the Portobello stuffed ravioli with cheese sauce. The rest is in the fridge for tomorrow's consumption. The waitress was perky!!!

Evening: Mom bought ice cream at Cold Stone Creamery -- I had a "Love It" serving (a.k.a. "Medium") of Chocolate with Reese's Peanut Butter cup chopped. Good stuff.

I even got four glasses of water in today. I rock.

Friday, May 25, 2007

Day 4 - May 25, 2007

Weight 153

Lessons learned from yesterday -- Make sure to have enough food at desk to get through day so emergency trips to Albertson's can be avoided. I shopped hungry and ended up with a wrap that was probably packed with about 600 calories (I have no idea, really). So this morning, I picked up some All Bran crackers (NEW!) and a box of Cinnamon/Brown Sugar Shredded Wheat to eat as finger food. Both have plenty of servings in the box, so this is much cheaper too.

A reader who identified himself as "Jayson" asked if all beverages not noted in my diet have 0 calories.

Good question, boy with extra letter in his name. Yes. If I have anything other than water or diet soda, I'll make note of it. I thought until this morning that vodka had no calories. But then I remembered that it was "odor" that vodka has none of. As luck would have it, I have imbibed no vodka this week.

Breakfast - Patio Beef & Bean Burrito (more frugal than healthy)

At work: Banana, a serving of the All Bran Garlic crackers, a handful of shredded wheat, apple, Fiber One chocolate and oats bar

Din-din: Two servings of Impossible Lasagna Pie.
Tomato juice.

Two mile walk during lunch.

Off to Wichita tomorrow morning to see my mom. Family gatherings are typically all about strapping on the feed bag.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Day 3 - May 24, 2007

Weight: 152

Drat - I forgot to bring my walking clothes to work! Subconscious sabotage, perhaps?

Breakfast: Salami sandwich and a large handful of Baked Cheetos

I picked up a decaf at Quik Trip with some French Vanilla creamer. I sip on this throughout my weekly conference call.

11:30 a.m. -- All coworkers within smelling distance bought Chinese food and brought it back to the office. I wasn't really asked if I wanted anything, but I'm taking a willpower victory anyway. I'll just put some soy sauce on my leftover pork tonight.

At my desk at work: Banana - America's favorite 8 and a half incher :-)
Fiber One Oats & Chocolate Bar
Apple
Turkey, Bacon, and Cheddar wrap from Albertson's

At home: Leftover pork sirloin and rice - Glass o' Vegetable juice

More Boxflex action tonight!

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Day 2 - May 23, 2007

Weight: 153.5

I've been super hungry today, but I've really only eaten small bits at a time.

Breakfast: Patio Chicken Burrito

At work: 1.5 oz. box of raisins, Fiber One Oats & Chocolate Bar (yummy!), 5 or 6 graham crackers, a Low Fat Chocolate Chunk Chewy Granola bar, 6 oz. of Pineapple/Banana/Orange juice

After work: Boneless pork sirloin and a cup of brown rice, banana.

Tonight will be difficult -- I usually eat nonstop while watching Lost. I'll just hit the diet soda really hard. I took an opportunity to buy a subscription to Self magazine for $1 an issue. Hopefully it's not all just ads and "how to apply makeup so boys will like you". The web page seemed to put a focus on health and recipes, so that's a good sign. Thanks to K.H. for the reference.

I also got a good link from R.B. to a great women's weight training site. Very empowering.

Exercise: Two mile walk at lunch. Note to self: Pack a change of clothes for tomorrow's walk.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Flog = Food Log

My next attempt at dieting incorporates my biggest motivator - the fear of failing in a public forum. Therefore, I will keep a public record of my weight, my feelings about food, exercise, and perhaps most important, the food I put in my body. That way, when I complain about my pants fitting too tightly, you can refer to the Chicken Fried Steak I ate on Day X and tell me to shut up.

The last few months have been horrible with respect to food. We began looking for houses in February, which is when I went on a diet of the cheapest things available - frozen burritos and Ramen so that the new house payment would be more feasible. Then, when the move proper began, who had time to zap something in the microwave? My relationship with food resembled the movie Super Size Me, except I ate at two or three different restaurants a day instead of just McDonald's. I stopped taking my long walks at lunch -- I was spending all of my time at home either packing, cleaning, or unpacking, so why not unwind with a Chicken Tender meal at Sonic during my lunch hour?

I'm pleased to say that my long walks at lunch have resumed and I'm eating healthier generally - just still too much. Hopefully the pain of having to log everything I eat will discourage some of the late night trips to the kitchen for cheese and crackers or Nutty Bars. I pledge to be honest and complete.

My goal is 140, which is the point where my BMI calculation is Normal rather than Overweight. I'm not obsessed with body image at all - People don't have to be stick thin to be beautiful. I'm just trying to avoid expensive health problems from arising in the future, such as diabetes, high cholesterol, and high blood pressure.

Day One - May 22, 2007
Weight - 154.5

Breakfast: Weight control oatmeal, with a generous layer of brown sugar (this can be scaled back)

At my desk at work: 1.5 oz. box of Raisins, Maruchan Instant Lunch (cup o' soup -- about 290 calories but lots of sodium and fat), 6oz. can of pineapple/banana/orange juice

At home at the kitchen table: slice of salami with two pieces of toast

At home in front of the TV: 8 oz. of vegetable juice

That wasn't so bad -- About 1000 calories and no starving

I also was inspired by my friend R.B. to resume strength training -- I pulled out the Bowflex and used some light weight. I pulled my neck really bad last spring using it and since then I've been shy on it, so I'll be slow to build back up. The weight melted off last spring when I used it so maybe that will happen again.