Food EVERYWHERE

It is not until I was stricken with what seems to be neverending nausea that I noticed how pervasive food is. Its images and smells are inescapable.

I almost throw up every time I go to the grocery store, because the smell of fried chicken is pumped strategically through the store. I thought I was kidding about this until my gag reflex allowed me to pay closer attention. At the Wal-Mart neighborhood market, the smell of fried chicken is actually stronger just outside the store than it is right next to the chicken. I'm guessing it's supposed to draw you into the store with the thought of "hey, man, buy some chicken". To me, all it says is "I hope you have a mop and bucket pretty close to the entrance".

Commercials are also bad -- I have to turn my head away from the TV during commercial breaks because I never know when I'm going to be hit with the image of a fatty hamburger with visible grease bubbles on it, or some nasty ass sandwich from Arby's.

If we have to stick with this food theme, why aren't there more commercials for Cheerio's, PB and J, Applesauce, and Popsicles? Food that has no aroma and more grams of fiber than grams of fat....

I could easily see myself becoming a vegetarian. I haven't eaten any meat in almost a week, and I was really forcing myself to eat that.

Good day.

Why I quit flogging myself

Weight: 149.5

So I went and got myself knocked up. Thus, I am no longer obsessed with losing weight. Having no appetite and throwing up throughout most of July and early August has taken care of that for me. I hope you all can understand that thinking about what I was eating throughout the day was not helping. I just wanted everyone to know that I'm not a failure, off somewhere weighing 250 pounds now and eating Chinese buffets every day.

Thankfully I have stopped losing weight, but I should be gaining weight this week. I drink Gatorade and other things that I can keep down. I snack on cheerios all day and popsicles in the evening. I wish I could eat healthy stuff like grilled chicken and salads, but it doesn't sound appealing at all. In fact, all meats sound nasty. 99% of all foods sound nasty.

Dr. appt. next week - maybe they'll hook me up with a protein IV drip.

Goodbye for now

Weight loss is no longer a goal. It will be again soon, I am sure, but I have too much going on right now to think about every morsel that I eat. I'm pretty much eating nothing but graham crackers anyway :-)

July 15, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Cup of ginger ale, handful of pretzels, package of Nutty Bars (which sounded appealing but really weren't), handful of grapes, bottle of apple juice, frozen burrito, 2 light bologna sandwiches

July 14, 2007

Weight: 152.5

Breakfast: handful of pretzels, 2 frozen waffles

I went to work again. I'm taking tomorrow off though. While there, I ate a small container of pringles and a handful of ginger snaps.

After work: 2.5 servings of Totino's pizza rolls and a bowl of popcorn with melted butter and parmesan cheese

July 13, 2007

Weight: 153 -- holding steady, and that's okay

Breakfast: cup of sprite and 2 frozen waffles

At work: bottle of apple juice (why is orange juice abbreviated OJ, but there is no such thing as AJ?), 1/2 a sleeve of graham crackers, Zone Perfect Bar, small bag of Gardettos, can of Ginger Ale

After work: frozen burrito

July 12, 2007

Weight: 153

Breakfast: small cup of sprite, 2 frozen waffles

At work: small bottle of apple juice, half a sleeve of graham crackers, Zone Perfect Bar, Special K Protein Bar, a packet of Doritos Jalapeno Cheese Crackers

After work: 2 Frozen burritos, handful of baked Cheetos

Exercise: one mile walk at lunch